Well, things got slightly better....or so I thought...went for a hip hop class last night...and well, it was something else, I see myself going back there for more classes. Work at NTUC Income is not too bad after all, where all of us(the temps) quite enjoyed ourselves working today on a saturday....Reason cause we were chatting most of the time as there weren't many calls. But just when I thought things are looking up, why am I still unhappy? Suddenly, I feel I don't wish to talk anymore...am very tired... There can only be one reason but no one suspects....There are still many things which I just can't comprehend. Do I have to blame it my own fate as what everyone else does? I don't believe in fate...think it's bullshit...things aren't preplanned...I believe I can change it...My life. I'm running it the way I want it to be...more or less...as many things are just not within one's control....you'll feel helpless, frustrated, upset....Sometimes, I really wish I could get what I give. Isn't it supposed to be unconditional? Yeah...but you know what it's like to love but not be loved.Sorry am just penning down what came to mind. So if you don't understand what the f**k am talking about, then forget it...
Went for ballet last night and I felt miserable...felt like am invisible and that all my efforts have come to naught! Is that it? 'Take a bow, thank you, you're not needed here anymore, your presence is insignificant'? Probably it's time for me to find greener pastures on the other side...and that my friends, I definately will...simply dancing is my passion...though am feeling terrible right now and no one will understand except my dance friends. They'll understand the mixed feelings of dilemma, misery and anger. Isn't dance supposed to be enjoyable? Why am I not enjoying? This is wrong! I shouldn't be feeling this way. It's supposed to keep my mind of other stuff but instead, it's adding to my misery....
If i were an only childI would be a lonely childBut baby we've got nothing to loseI'm standing tall in my own shoesI'll take this chanceI'll make this choiceI'll right this wrongI'll raise my voiceIf it meansWe'll be togetherFor a while
I have never had a doubtBut for you i'll take time outI'll push his love far away from meAnd then i'll be completely freeI'll give up my securityFor just the possibilityThat we could be togetherFor a while
** If you said "jump!" i'd say "how high?"If you said "run!" i'd run and flyJust for the chanceJust for the momentShould the moment pass us byAnd if you ask once i'll tell you twiceI'll ignore the world's adviceIf we could be togetherFor a while
I am taken by your strengthI've thought about it at great lengthI thought that i was happy nowBut there are things that i found outHappiness means greater thingsI'll sit here 'til that telephone ringsThen we could be togetherFor a while
**Chorus
Bridge:Wait'll i tell my guy (wait'll i tell)Wait'll i tell my other friendsThey'll all think i'm crazy-And ya know what?That depends...'cause i'm crazy in loveWith youAnd everyone's best won't doThey'll say my hopesWill not come trueBut i'm taking the chanceBecause you only live once-Only live once (only live once)
And...If you said "jump!" i'd say "how high?"If you said "run!" you know i'd flyJust for the chanceJust for the momentShould the moment pass us byAnd if you ask once i'll tell you twiceI'll ignore the world's adviceIf we could be togetherFor a while
Bridge:There are no guaranteesBut if it meansThere's even a possibilityThen i'll give up whatever it takesI know i've made some mistakes beforeIt may be just another closed doorBut we could be togetherFor a while
**Chorus Don't you know that we could be togetherFor a while...
Finally, the exams are over! Phew! So what now? What lies beyond??? I wonder what's in store for me...Moving on...letting go as I'm getting nowhere despite my efforts. I deserve much more...This marks a new beginning for me...Look out world, here I come!
