"Hors d'oeuvre"

For starters, well, an appetizer if you like, this very first post of mine will be a little bit about myself. Just who am I? What kind of a person am I? I say, I am a lazy, stubbon, stupid and miserable person. I have no goals in life nor do I know what I want to do. Sure, there are plenty of things that I want but are just not within my reach, or are they? I am not a planner. I prefer spur of the moment, spontaneity, come what may. I am a procrastinator, can't be bothered and who is critical of many things. I am a dreamer, and I like to keep my feelings to myself, especially when I am feeling down. A friend of mine once said to me that I never show my anger before and rarely, my unhappiness. Unhappy stuff should be bottled up. Nobody wants to know about unhappy stuff. Some may not even understand your plight. Some have their own problems too.So why bother them with mine? Only thing is that instead of tossing it out to sea, never to return again, I keep it burrowed in my mental possession. It bothers me. Haunts me, weighing me down. However will I find solace?